problem
i think i have a problem. there is obviously something wrong with my brain. i feel like absolute shit, but for some reason i still stayed at work for the full shift last night, and turned up for work today (only to be sent straight back home again). i’m now at home and feeling guilty that i haven’t been to the gym. what the hell is wrong with me! i’m also feeling guilty for eating more than i’m supposed to on my diet. i’m ill for crying out loud! what the hell is wrong with me, after everything that happened two years ago you would think that i would be able to look after myself, but no, i’m doing it all again, working too hard and not giving myself a break…when will i learn?!?!?!?!?! even as i’m writing this i’m still thinking that i really should have gone to the gym even though i’m feeling shit…wtf!!!!!
